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My girl and I made a pact that if distance would keep us separated due to the onus she or I should comply with our family, we should keep our bond stronger and refrain from those attitudes, actions, petty things, and fights that threatens to devastate our valued relationship. It’s barely two weeks after she left for Cebu City, I already encountered and experienced the things we should not be doing as agreed by us prior to her departure.

It is sad to say that those things are the one I hated most even when we’re still in one place. Those are the things, attitudes, behaviors and actions I despised for I wanted to leave a life full of respect, trust and serenity.

I have this reputation of being meticulous and organized in any thing. Being such, I can easily recognize if I have done something unforgivable. If I am not that quick to see my shortcomings, I am always receptive to people animadversions to refresh my (failing) memory.

I always believe in the idea that people can change. They can transform their depraved manners, attitudes, behaviors, and actions to an acceptable one, if not angelic. Reasons that I mingled even with the individuals other people derided – drug addicts, kanto boys etc.

Just last night, my girl confronted me why I am not answering to her text messages where in fact i did. The downside of modern technology especially with the presence of unlimited text and call promotions of wireless mobile communication providers. It overloads the system and sometimes doesnt forward messages to the recepient.

The thing I couldn’t believe hearing last night from my girl is her statement – “ I completely trust you” yet she won’t believe some of my statements. There is a prevalent existence of inconsistency in that statement.

Ako na ingamit an tanan klase nan pagsabot sa iya batasan. Ako na intestingan an tanan klase nan pasensiya. Wara siya masayod kon uno kasakit an ako tagbati sa pagsabot ug pagpasensiya sa iya para lang protektahan an amo relasyon. Bisan maglagot na ako dili dakan lamang nako siya confrontahon kay hibawo ako na siya pa an maglagot.

What if kaha moabot an time na pasanginlan ko siya on something na dili tinuod. Makaya kaha niya ako sabton ug pagpasensiyahan? Mahimo kaha ako niya istoryahon sa cool na paagi kaysa masakit, awayon or buodan ako?

A relationship, whether long distance or not, would not workout and last longer if you won’t winnow things out and refrain from doing, acting and behaving things that would devastate any given relationship.

Yes! It is not good to control our emotions but be sure to control our actions. We may be drowned by our negative emotions yet we can do things in a diplomatic way instead of choking one’s neck.

I stayed in the relationship because I love her so much and I have a big hope that she would change her depraved ways. Who, after all, wanted to have a relationship and family where violence resides - physical, verbal or emotional?

I am wishful that she changes her old ways so we can workout the long distance relationship she feared won’t succeed. I am hopeful that she concentrates on things that would make our bond stronger.