we are distinct

Forgive me to sound preachy now. “Every one of us is created unique”, the Bible preaches.

What that passage has to do with my present predicament?

I am just confused why they coined me as “chicboy”. A “chicboy” is not literally a “girl magnet” but has a negative undertone on it. That perception continues to hound me until now. And is greatly affecting the relationship I have with this girl who is so special to me.

I can’t really decipher now the difference between my perceptions and the perspectives of other people especially that of the female gender regarding that so called “chicboys”. I don’t regard guys having numerous relationships in the past to belong on this category. I only do when I’m certain that they have two or more relationship at the same time. The so called “namamangka sa dalawang ilog."

I can proudly say that I’m not of the latter but of the former. Though, I have numerous relationships in the past and the time I entered college, I had a commitment to myself to only have one relationship at a time. I have high esteem towards the opposite sex.

The fact that I found it hard to understand the reactions and uptakes of my girl with regards to my dealings with my old…old friends, who have a female gender. It’s unreasonable, disrespectful to be shoving them away, anyway, when they only want to know how I’m doing in life now.

I can’t really comprehend why they always generalize things. There will always be good or bad, women and men alike. However, I always try to be on the good side. And I always shy away from things or manners that would destroy my cherished dreams, my relationship with people especially my relationship with people who I value most in life.